Hurts

I was asked this week to think and pray about my hurts. More so hurts I’ve experienced in my life that are still with me. Here’s what I’ve come up with so far.
1. Being left out as a child. It seemed everyone in my life were always buddied up and I was mostly without a bff. I remember being in 6th grade and being so angry with my parents after Sunday school that they didn’t immediately come find me after they were let out of service. I HATED being alone. I hated the label “loner” even though I was never called one; the fear alone was enough to make me never be caught dead standing alone!
2. I know most school kids can be pretty mean, and I definitely have my own memories of mean girls. I remember 2nd and 3rd grade were particularly hard years for left out and treated poorly by classmates.
3. “Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” –Moulin Rouge. Although I really love the movie Moulin Rouge, I’m not convinced their quote is true…for me. In my Beth Moore bible study we’ve been talking about broken hearts. Oh I’ve struggled with my heart being shattered. It’s sad to me to realize years later it still affects me. Through this bible study I’m going to deal with it once and for all!
4. Losing my Grandma my senior year of high school was definitely hard, but losing both my Grandpas last year within 3 months was even harder. With all of my grandparent’s deaths I’ve been by their side as much as I could handle. Any loss in the family is hard. Though I learned much from the process of these losses, I still mourn and my heart is still sensitive when I look back.

Lord, I know you know where and how and when I hurt. I love that you know me so intimately. Thank you for loving ME! Jesus, please show me what hurts and wounds I have so I may bring them to your feet. I am ready to be free. I am ready to give them up, no matter how much sympathy I get from holding onto them and having them in my past. Bring my wounds and hurts to the surface of this life I’ve given to you so you can heal it. I am ready and willing. I also say an extra prayer for a customer, Brant, who comes in daily and is in critical condition today. You know what is going on and I ask for healing upon him and wisdom for the doctors.

Underwear

I was a Fred Meyer getting some groceries during my lunch break and the thought crossed my mind, “there sure are a lot of people who think that not wearing underwear is unnoticeable”. Let me tell you, IT’S NOTICEABLE! I’m sorry! I’m about to be vulgar, but holy cow…when your shorts get stuck in your butt crack and you are simply walking…it’s noticeable. And when anyone with some extra cellulite in the rear is walking down the isle and there is no extra support of the underwear…oh my is it ever noticeable. I’m not even going to go into the whole bending over subject because you KNOW what I would have to say about that. So please people, this is an urgent plea…PLEASE WEAR UNDERWEAR! I know it’s summer and it’s hot and an extra added layer of clothing just sucks, but really, you are helping us all out in the long run. And no, thongs (or as I like to call them – dental floss) do not count as underwear. We are trying to eliminate jiggle, not encourage it.
P.S. I went to the Spokane Valley DMV today and got my new temporary license! Here’s a pic!

Thursday 7/29/2010

During my lunch break a co-worker and I headed to the new Farm Chicks store! I’m posting a picture of just how cute it is! It was fun, but sorry to say I was expecting so much more. I just love the feeling of finding something original. You know when there’s only ONE of it and your blood pressure escalates and you have a serious debate whether or not you should buy it? Well, I guess I always HOPE for that feeling, but let me tell you I was REALLY hoping for it at the Farm Chicks store. Sad to say there was about 20 of everything when all I was really on the hunt for was a one-of-a-kind find. If you’re looking for necklaces, chapstick, and tshirts with the Farm Chicks logo on them, this store is your kind of place. For me, for now, I’m hoping after they make a few bucks from their grand opening, they’ll invest in some “pickers” to find some highly anticipated treasures.


On another note, something that’s been on my heart today… Do you know those acquaintances you meet then feel a special pulling on your heart? For me, I never know for sure what it means; just that the Holy Spirit is signaling in me to push myself to meet them, talk to them, reach out to them, or even encourage them by just saying hi. A few months ago I moved my desk at work back to the old data center where there was an opening. There was a man by the name of Bill that would come in daily and deliver special tapes. Every day he’d come in around 2pm and I’d politely say hello. I got that strange pull from the Holy Spirit to push myself and really try and take the time go get to know him. I told one of my co-workers, “I don’t know what it’ll take, but I’m going to get that guy to open up to me!”. Well, yesterday my co-worker got an email that Bill had suddenly died the day prior. He hadn’t been feeling well and had been in and out the last few weeks. All this to say, when the Holy Spirit pulls on your heart…obey. I did what He asked of me and I’m glad I didn’t just ignore this inclining in my heart. We just never know how long anyone has left on this earth.

Oh Kayla, You Silly Girl!

So, I had this real great idea to renew my driver’s license online so I wouldn’t have to deal with going in, waiting, getting my picture taken, waiting and waiting some more. I’m a busy woman with a tight schedule…at least I keep telling myself that. When I renewed online, the website wouldn’t let me change my address. If I tried, it just said I had to go in to my nearest DOL office. Well, I didn’t want to deal with that now did I? I already made up my mind I wasn’t going in. So, I figured – what harm would it do to just have my old address on my driver’s license? I move so much anyway, it doesn’t matter to me which address in on there. It’ll change again soon anyway. Last night (the day my license expired and my birthday) I was upset my new license hadn’t shown up yet. What was taking so long? I mean, sure I have some dumb print-out just in case I get pulled over or something, but where was my new license? Finally it dawned on me…duh, they probably sent it to my old address I confirmed when I renewed it. Oh it’s so hard not to call myself names…’cause I sure feel like an idiot! This is what I get for taking the easy way out. Here’s a picture of me and my frustrated face!

carnival pictures!

I love this pic...my 2 cousins...so vintage yet ADORABLE!

Busy weekend!

Hello everyone! Since the last time I posted, I’ve been to Vegas, went to Wenatchee for the 4th, threw myself a “bomb” golden birthday party, and helped with the bridal shower for my sister-to-be, Rachel. Most of it happened this weekend. I can’t wait to post the pictures of my carnival party complete with a cotton candy machine, hot dog rollers, nacho machine, cupcake decorating booth, face painting booth, ball toss, photo booth, and spin the wheel! Lots of family and friends joined me in celebrating my 27th birthday. What makes it golden you ask? When you turn the age of the day your birthday is on, that’s your golden birthday. For example - I turn 27 on the 27th of July! Thanks to everyone who came and I can’t wait until next year!