Hurts

I was asked this week to think and pray about my hurts. More so hurts I’ve experienced in my life that are still with me. Here’s what I’ve come up with so far.
1. Being left out as a child. It seemed everyone in my life were always buddied up and I was mostly without a bff. I remember being in 6th grade and being so angry with my parents after Sunday school that they didn’t immediately come find me after they were let out of service. I HATED being alone. I hated the label “loner” even though I was never called one; the fear alone was enough to make me never be caught dead standing alone!
2. I know most school kids can be pretty mean, and I definitely have my own memories of mean girls. I remember 2nd and 3rd grade were particularly hard years for left out and treated poorly by classmates.
3. “Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all” –Moulin Rouge. Although I really love the movie Moulin Rouge, I’m not convinced their quote is true…for me. In my Beth Moore bible study we’ve been talking about broken hearts. Oh I’ve struggled with my heart being shattered. It’s sad to me to realize years later it still affects me. Through this bible study I’m going to deal with it once and for all!
4. Losing my Grandma my senior year of high school was definitely hard, but losing both my Grandpas last year within 3 months was even harder. With all of my grandparent’s deaths I’ve been by their side as much as I could handle. Any loss in the family is hard. Though I learned much from the process of these losses, I still mourn and my heart is still sensitive when I look back.

Lord, I know you know where and how and when I hurt. I love that you know me so intimately. Thank you for loving ME! Jesus, please show me what hurts and wounds I have so I may bring them to your feet. I am ready to be free. I am ready to give them up, no matter how much sympathy I get from holding onto them and having them in my past. Bring my wounds and hurts to the surface of this life I’ve given to you so you can heal it. I am ready and willing. I also say an extra prayer for a customer, Brant, who comes in daily and is in critical condition today. You know what is going on and I ask for healing upon him and wisdom for the doctors.

Underwear

I was a Fred Meyer getting some groceries during my lunch break and the thought crossed my mind, “there sure are a lot of people who think that not wearing underwear is unnoticeable”. Let me tell you, IT’S NOTICEABLE! I’m sorry! I’m about to be vulgar, but holy cow…when your shorts get stuck in your butt crack and you are simply walking…it’s noticeable. And when anyone with some extra cellulite in the rear is walking down the isle and there is no extra support of the underwear…oh my is it ever noticeable. I’m not even going to go into the whole bending over subject because you KNOW what I would have to say about that. So please people, this is an urgent plea…PLEASE WEAR UNDERWEAR! I know it’s summer and it’s hot and an extra added layer of clothing just sucks, but really, you are helping us all out in the long run. And no, thongs (or as I like to call them – dental floss) do not count as underwear. We are trying to eliminate jiggle, not encourage it.
P.S. I went to the Spokane Valley DMV today and got my new temporary license! Here’s a pic!

Thursday 7/29/2010

During my lunch break a co-worker and I headed to the new Farm Chicks store! I’m posting a picture of just how cute it is! It was fun, but sorry to say I was expecting so much more. I just love the feeling of finding something original. You know when there’s only ONE of it and your blood pressure escalates and you have a serious debate whether or not you should buy it? Well, I guess I always HOPE for that feeling, but let me tell you I was REALLY hoping for it at the Farm Chicks store. Sad to say there was about 20 of everything when all I was really on the hunt for was a one-of-a-kind find. If you’re looking for necklaces, chapstick, and tshirts with the Farm Chicks logo on them, this store is your kind of place. For me, for now, I’m hoping after they make a few bucks from their grand opening, they’ll invest in some “pickers” to find some highly anticipated treasures.


On another note, something that’s been on my heart today… Do you know those acquaintances you meet then feel a special pulling on your heart? For me, I never know for sure what it means; just that the Holy Spirit is signaling in me to push myself to meet them, talk to them, reach out to them, or even encourage them by just saying hi. A few months ago I moved my desk at work back to the old data center where there was an opening. There was a man by the name of Bill that would come in daily and deliver special tapes. Every day he’d come in around 2pm and I’d politely say hello. I got that strange pull from the Holy Spirit to push myself and really try and take the time go get to know him. I told one of my co-workers, “I don’t know what it’ll take, but I’m going to get that guy to open up to me!”. Well, yesterday my co-worker got an email that Bill had suddenly died the day prior. He hadn’t been feeling well and had been in and out the last few weeks. All this to say, when the Holy Spirit pulls on your heart…obey. I did what He asked of me and I’m glad I didn’t just ignore this inclining in my heart. We just never know how long anyone has left on this earth.

Oh Kayla, You Silly Girl!

So, I had this real great idea to renew my driver’s license online so I wouldn’t have to deal with going in, waiting, getting my picture taken, waiting and waiting some more. I’m a busy woman with a tight schedule…at least I keep telling myself that. When I renewed online, the website wouldn’t let me change my address. If I tried, it just said I had to go in to my nearest DOL office. Well, I didn’t want to deal with that now did I? I already made up my mind I wasn’t going in. So, I figured – what harm would it do to just have my old address on my driver’s license? I move so much anyway, it doesn’t matter to me which address in on there. It’ll change again soon anyway. Last night (the day my license expired and my birthday) I was upset my new license hadn’t shown up yet. What was taking so long? I mean, sure I have some dumb print-out just in case I get pulled over or something, but where was my new license? Finally it dawned on me…duh, they probably sent it to my old address I confirmed when I renewed it. Oh it’s so hard not to call myself names…’cause I sure feel like an idiot! This is what I get for taking the easy way out. Here’s a picture of me and my frustrated face!

carnival pictures!

I love this pic...my 2 cousins...so vintage yet ADORABLE!

Busy weekend!

Hello everyone! Since the last time I posted, I’ve been to Vegas, went to Wenatchee for the 4th, threw myself a “bomb” golden birthday party, and helped with the bridal shower for my sister-to-be, Rachel. Most of it happened this weekend. I can’t wait to post the pictures of my carnival party complete with a cotton candy machine, hot dog rollers, nacho machine, cupcake decorating booth, face painting booth, ball toss, photo booth, and spin the wheel! Lots of family and friends joined me in celebrating my 27th birthday. What makes it golden you ask? When you turn the age of the day your birthday is on, that’s your golden birthday. For example - I turn 27 on the 27th of July! Thanks to everyone who came and I can’t wait until next year!

Farm Chicks 2010

Just before I left for vacation, I got the chance to hit up Farm Chicks down at the Fair and Expo Center. This is one of my very favorite events of the year. Usually I try and attend around 1 or 2 pm just so I don't go bonkers because of the large amounts of people. Well guess who had perfect timing? More like guess who has perfect timing and allowed me to meet Serena..THE Farm Chicks gal??? God did! Isn't he wonderful. Luckly Melinda pushed me up there and snapped a photo with her new camera, otherwise I'm not sure I would have had the guts to do it. Just wanted to share this great pic with you all.

What kind of car to get…

I have this wonderful opportunity to pick out a car of my choice (within reason) and I simply cannot decide. I want something compact, funky, and colorful that just SCREAMS “Kayla”. My first choice (yes, you guessed it) a VW New Beetle. These zippy little 2 door German vehicles are cute and seem to be everything I want in a car. Small, unique, comes in a variety of colors, good crash test ratings, does well in the snow (with a good set of snow tires) and seem to last forever. I have interviewed quite a few people who have them. They all say Volkswagens are great cars and if given the choice they’d buy another one all over again. So, what’s holding me back? Well, you see, I’m content being able to have my car easily repaired by family and friends. Whether it’s a simple oil change or getting a new timing belt, it seems there is always someone who knows how to work on an older Honda. With a Volkswagen, it’s a different story. Everything has to be done by a mechanic. There are certain keys to open certain parts of the car. It’s scary to me that every time I need a headlight changed, I’ll need to take it to someone and pay them with something besides a Starbucks card or free babysitting. Then I think, “Well, any newer car is probably going to be a similar story.” There are so many questions, so many options, and so many things to consider. This requires so much RESPONSIBILITY!!! I told someone the other day, “I wish someone would just read my mind and offer me the car of my dreams in my price range”. Ya, wouldn’t that be nice?
The dealership – a world of its own. How do you get a deal? Is craigslist really the way to go? I’m lucky I’m not in a position where I need a new car ASAP. It would still be nice to check that off my list. I’m nervous, but I guess I need to realize God is bigger than the sneaky car salesman. I’m researching to the best of my ability. I need to be secure in the fact God will take care of me. I keep thinking, “what am I doing, what if I can’t handle this, what if it’s too expensive and I just can’t keep up…”. God will always provide me a way out or an answer. I need to be smart about this huge purchase, but I also need to be relying on Him that he will supply me with what I need. There are also times when I think, “do I seriously even NEED a car? There are people who can’t afford a car at all and I’m debating which car I WANT. How selfish am I?” It’s exciting to think about getting a new(er) car, but sometimes it ok to really think about the options and choices that are available to me.

My Weekend...

I cannot believe it's been so long since I've written. Sorry to my 3 followers! Lol. Well, the most exciting thing that happened this weekend was getting to spend time with my fellow female jr. high co-leaders. It was so touching and spiritually refreshing to get to know them all better. We took advantage of the "party package" at the Ramada in Airway Heights. We got 2 rooms, each with a king size bed, 4 pizzas, 8 pops and 12 passes to their water area with a slide, hot tubs and pools. It was so entertaining cramming 12 women into a hotel room just to dance around to music from our day (ie TLC, N'Sync, etc), and jump on the bed just for funzies! Our plan was to watch a movie, but we were having so much fun we never even got to that. I just want to say how thrilled I am to have had the chance to get to know these fabulous women even more. I have a newfound respect for each and every one of them. Having this event also tells me how important it is to be in fellowship with other women, espically who share the same passion - jr highers! I don't want to spill too much info, but my very favorite part was when we all squished around the edges of the king sized bed and told eachother what was really on our hearts. Times like that are so very precious to me and I will never forget the softened hearts of those women that night. Thank you Lord for such an amazing little get away and for being in that room with all of us that night.





The other exciting thing I got to do this weekend was attend the Rock & Worship Roadshow tour. If you get the chance, DO IT! It was so much fun! Remedy Drive, Sidewalk Prophets, Franchesca Batisteli, Mercy Me, David Crowder, Family Force Five and Fee were all there for...get this...$10! OMG, it was so amazing. Here are some pics and videos...the videos are hard to hear because of all the screaming and bass. We FILLED the Spokane Arena! Woot-woot!

FEE!

थे दविड़ The David Crowder Band!!! -My heros!

Check, Check

So...I can finally (after about 6 years) check something off my bucket list! I've been wanting to learn how to solder jewelry ever since I worked at Pickle Papers. A couple weekends ago, I finally sat down and soldered my heart out! My parents got me a soldering kit (dvd included) for Christmas. The dvd was so helpful. All the little tricks and dos and don'ts are so great to know ahead of time. I started a shop on Etsy.com, but don't have anything up yet. Here's the address for future reference. I'm hoping to get some things up tonight as I will actually be home for once with nothing to do!
http://www.etsy.com/shop/kiwijones67

My heart is happy and content with this new trade skill I've learned! I hope I'll only get better with time. It's funny how the Lord lets me gather the materials over time, then when he provides me with the last piece of the puzzle, I've pretty much already got everything else. I'm a paper fanatic after working at PP, so I always collect scraps. If I'm at Good Will or yard sales or estate sales I ALWAYS go straight for old wrapping paper, office supplies, any paper product that's vintage looking. My family and friends were always like, "Why in the world are you buying that?" I'd simply reply, "I can put this to good use!" Or I'd go to a jewelry store and buy one earring from the clearance rack in the back corner of the store...now, It's the perfect addition to a soldered pendant! One woman's trash really is another woman's treasure...yeah, mine! Lol. I remember when my cousin Melinda was remodeling her kitchen and they took out this 1950's island that was up against one wall. When her and her husband took it out, they found receipts, bills, paper decorations, flyers, and all sorts of junk mail from 1960-1990 and the first person that popped into her head...was ME! Well guess what I'm using in my awesome soldered pieces...yeah, you guessed it. A special story for each and every piece!

All in all, I'm super exited about my newfound talent and I thank the Lord for my strong intrest and passion for this kind of artwork.